I think it's pretty obvious from everything I've written that I love my fiancée an absurd amount. I love being engaged to her, I love being around her, and I love going on dates with her. Even so, the best person I've ever dated is still myself. I started thinking this way a few years … Continue reading Being My Own Primary
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Looking Fat
Cw: discussion of societal and internalised fatmisia We are so often encouraged to wear clothes that make us look smaller. I remember being in my early twenties, trying on clothes in a cramped changing room, waiting to find the perfect drab outfit that would make me look the thinnest. Eventually, uncomfortable and sweating under the … Continue reading Looking Fat
Sometimes Trans People Suck at Sports (and they should be allowed to)
I'm transgender, and I suck at sport. Some of my earliest memories involve me looking up at towering adults while wearing an adorable tutu and feeling very, very cross about it. Even though I sucked, I did a lot of sport as a child - ballet, tap dancing, horse riding, judo, swimming, gymnastics, football, etc, … Continue reading Sometimes Trans People Suck at Sports (and they should be allowed to)
Five Creators to Support on Patreon
CW: Discussion of transphobia On the back of my Patreon launch I've been thinking about the amazing creators I subscribe to on that platform. So, without further ado, here are the four creators that I support on Patreon right now, with a special surprise celebrity guest at the end (spoilers: it's me). The featured image … Continue reading Five Creators to Support on Patreon
How to Work as a Life Model
Every once in a while, I get naked for money in the name of art. Life modelling is the craft of maintaining a pose, or several poses, over a specific period of time while people draw you. This can mean keeping one pose for several hours, or working through numerous short poses. It's often a … Continue reading How to Work as a Life Model
To Anyone Who’s Struggling This Christmas
Cw: discussions of abuse, oppression, mental health, and food Christmas can be difficult, and complicated, and full of feelings, and whatever is happening for you right now, it will be over sooner than you think. You are resilient even though you shouldn't have to be, and you can get through this. We can get through … Continue reading To Anyone Who’s Struggling This Christmas
Four Horrible Christmas Things that I am Excited to Wear to Your Sensible Grown-Up Holiday Party
There are three important things that you should know about me. I am: 1) obsessed with Christmas, 2) a fan of fantastically ugly clothes, and 3) not easily embarrassed in public. December is the time when all of this comes together in a perfect storm and the worst of my wardrobe comes out. It's amazing … Continue reading Four Horrible Christmas Things that I am Excited to Wear to Your Sensible Grown-Up Holiday Party
On Passing
I am never sure how my girlfriend doesn't pass. She's curvy with long pink hair and a dimpled smile that lights up a room. Her skin is soft and her lips are plump. She listens, loudly, to music that I consider embarrassingly girly (I have some unsorted toxic masculinity to work out - it's a … Continue reading On Passing
July 16th – October 16th 2018
I've been recording one second of video every day since I moved across England to live with my girlfriend. It's been pretty helpful for my mental health - it's a way of documenting moods and occasions while learning to process them in a different way. I tried to film how each day went, instead of … Continue reading July 16th – October 16th 2018









